Saturday, December 20, 2014

WW Week 7

OMG I have the worst cold.  It started as a sore throat - but there aren't any white patches, so I don't think it's strep.  Nor do I think an antibiotic would help.  It's likely just a virus that is going to have to run its course.  I'm bummed, though.  It's like a week before Christmas, and I sound like a bullfrog and feel like hammered dog poop. 


The cough is really rough - whatever is in my lungs is only just starting to break up a bit.  I've got some cough drugs, and some Robitussin DM, which doesn't really work for stopping the cough, but it does coat the throat, which makes things easier, and it has the gunk in it that will break up the solid mass that appears to be in my lungs . . .  And if I should start coughing up stuff in dayglo green and yellow, I'll be on the blower to my doctor to get that antibiotic after all.

I woke up around 3 struggling to breath through all the gunk in the way.  I never did get back to sleep all the way.  I see a nap in my near future. In fact, I think the majority of today will be spent on the sofa in the sunroom, hopefully napping. I've kicked the heat up to 70 and am about to put on a fleecy.  The tea should be just cool enough to drink now.  I'm hoping it will take the chill off.

I did run over to WW this morning - and warned everyone to use hand sanitizer after they touched my weigh-in book and materials.  I did not stay for the meeting though.  I don't like to miss.  I would rather stay.  But subjecting a bunch of people to this would not be kind six days before Christmas.  In that same vein, I'm not going to church tomorrow - and I'm doubtful now to be able to sing on Christmas Eve.

Blech.  Two times.

Yesterday I used my last few hours of annual leave to come home early, and I have resigned myself to the distinct possibility of a day or two of unpaid leave if this doesn't clear up by Monday.  I did do all the errands I had to do yesterday, which was smart of me.  And I have to tell you that the bar code reader that comes with WW's eTools is awesome beyond belief.  O.M.G.  Seriously!!!  Never again will I end up with 6 point tortillas when I really wanted 2 point ones.

After three weeks or so of small shrinkage, I was down 3.2 today.  I'll take that!

Here's the Check In:

Weight:  -3.2
Daily Points:  32
Weekly Points:  49 (ate 48)
Activity Points:  Earned 4 (ate 0)

Sunday, December 14, 2014

WW Week 6

Still moving forward here - albeit slowly.  This can be a challenging time of year, I think.  There seems to be food everywhere.  I was supposed to attend two luncheons this week.  I ended up only attending one, and the food wasn't great, so it was easy to do pretty well.  But I mean really - why would you choose the most bitter vegetable to serve (broccoli rabe - I think it was that, I nearly choked on it), and what restaurant worth its salt serves margarine instead of butter????  I should have realized that last part immediately, but it took me a bit.  I did realize right away that something was off with the taste, but initially I thought it was just unsalted butter.  I had a little more on the bread I was having, and a distinctly synthetic taste came through.  And then I was irritated with myself for not recognizing it sooner and saving myself a few points  :-D

Mrs. Field's Cookies arrived in the mail.  Thankfully they are packaged two together.  All the ones with chocolate in them will go to my cousins, but there are still six types (that's 12 cookies altogether) that I could eat.  If I choose to.  And they send a nutritional information sheet!!  :-D  Most of these cookies are already in the WW database, and the cheapest in points for any of them is 5 and many are quite a few more.  That would mean if you ate both of the cookies in the little pack, it would be 10 points or more.  Yeah, that makes you think twice for sure.  Still, I'll save that nutritional information sheet - just in case I decide I would like to have one.

A friend sent me a small seasonal bag of Lindt Peppermint White Chocolate Truffles.  Those are those little single wrap balls you see in stores, but they only come in peppermint at Christmas time.  And I love peppermint.  My friend thought they might be a good thing to put in the freezer for when I might want something sweet.  At 2 points each, they would be a better choice.  The problem there, is only having one - still, I think these will go into the freezer . . .  she suggested I put them in a frozen vegetable bag   :-D

One thing I didn't do as well on this week as I was doing when Linda was here, is vegetables.  They are just never my first choice of something to put in my mouth.  I had a piece of fruit today, and plan to have another this afternoon.  And I did pick up some Brussels Sprouts which I plan to roast tonight as part of dinner.  I do have a luncheon today and I'm hoping there will be a good greens choice for me to have.  Somehow I find it's always easier to eat salads and veggies when I'm in a restaurant.

I had two good workouts this week - and a wonderful massage.  I booked massages for the next two Mondays, as well.  I really needed them.

I did go over on points this week, by one.  I realize that's not that much.  But I can see that on the weeks when I do eat every single point, my loss is not as much as I might like.

I have moved over to a meeting location that's closer to my house.  I really like the leader at the farther location, and I know I'll continue to go there from time to time, but I think I'm going to stay mostly at the location that is closer to home.  The group of people there is very nice and I already feel at home there.  Plus they seem to have more stuff for sale in the meeting room.  Stuff I'm interested in.  Plus, I like the leader there, too. 

I'm finding that I'm liking my food week switch from Thursday-Wednesday to Saturday-Friday very much.  I often use the majority of my Weekly Points on Saturday and Sunday, but I usually use fewer during the work week, so this has been working out well for me.  Actually far better than I thought it would.  Yay!!

And now, I had best get these truffles in the freezer and out of my sight . . .   ;-D

Here's the Check In:

Weight:  -0.8
Daily Points:  32
Weekly Points:  49 (ate 50)
Activity Points:  Earned 7 (ate 7)

Saturday, December 6, 2014

WW Week 5

For a variety of reasons everything has been at sixes and sevens here for the past few weeks - I'm sorry about no real updates.

I continue to feel that returning to WW on November 1st was one of the best decisions I've made in a very long time.  Last week's loss was very small, but it was still a loss - and no real surprise after three weeks of substantial losses.  This week's loss was quite satisfactory and puts me just over 13 pounds gone (again :-) ).  I'm happy about that!

One of the things I have been doing is re-evaluating a lot of things in my life and trying to make some decisions about how I might want to move forward.  I know that piping is still very important to me, and I know that while I will always grow African violets, I don't need to grow as many as I have been the past few years.  Additionally, and I need to simplify their care.

To that end, today I decided to put all the violets back on reservoirs.  I have downsized substantially throughout the last few months, but I'm still finding that I'm having a little trouble keeping up with things.  So - back on reservoirs they go - it's not good for them to wilt from dryness too many times.

Christmas is in full swing - I managed to get to church last Sunday for the first Sunday of Advent.  It's my plan to attend throughout Advent, which means I'll be getting up and getting cracking early tomorrow.  Also for tomorrow my cousin and I have plans to go to the club and get a workout in.  I'm looking forward to that - after a few weeks of no exercise, I was able to get back on my schedule this week and got my two normal morning workouts in.  A third one will be a great addition for me.

Linda the Chicken Lady is safely across the country, and the house is really quiet without her and Hannah.  She's getting settled out in California.  I wonder if she's going to rename her blog!

Here's the Check In:

Weight:  -1.4
Daily Points:  32
Weekly Points:  49 (ate 49)
Activity Points:  Earned 5 (ate 5)

Saturday, November 29, 2014

WW Week 4

Here's the Check In:

Weight:  -0.2
Daily Points:  32
Weekly Points:  49 (ate 48)
Activity Points:  Earned 1 (ate none)

Sunday, November 23, 2014

WW Week 3

The next few weeks will be just quick check-ins.

Here's the Check In:

Weight:  -3.4
Daily Points:  33
Weekly Points:  49 (ate 25)
Activity Points:  Earned 0 (ate none)

Sunday, November 16, 2014

WW Week 2

I'm hanging in.

I've made it through two weeks of being back on program.  I continue to feel like this is one of the best things I could have done for myself.

I missed my yoga last weekend.  I'd like to blame that on out of town company, but that's really no excuse.  I could have done it on Sunday afternoon and I just didn't.  I didn't get much pipe practice in either this week - and it certainly showed in my lesson on Wednesday night  :-S

My steps were down a bit, and I didn't log as many Activity Points as I did the first week, but it's not often that I get a 15,000 step day in like I did in Week 1.

I had an "Aha" moment last weekend at my meeting that I have taken to heart this week.  Every week there is what I call - for lack of a better term - a Weekly Reader (remember those?!).  I used to get the meeting room weekly reader and look through it, read the exercise, look at the recipe, check out the tips, and then put it away - or toss it.  Last Saturday, a woman in my meeting said that she had really worked with the exercise and answered the questions - and from what I could tell, it pretty much informed her whole week and kept her on task.

Well, isn't that interesting?  She actually used one of the tools that WW gives us every week in the meeting room  . . .  I made a decision there and then that I was going to use every tool that WW gives me to be successful.  I'm not going to just read it, or think about it, I'm going to do/use/practice it.

So, yeah, I got cracking right away with the exercise in last week's weekly reader as soon as I got home from my meeting.  I actually wrote out my answers to the questions.  It was all about what my choice (lose or maintain) was going to be for the holiday season and how I was going to achieve it - and OMG we are IN the Holiday Season, my friends.  It's in full swing already.

And then, I happened to re-watch Dr. Brene Brown's two Oprah Master Class episodes last Sunday, and she said something that that really resonated with me and completely dovetailed with the choice I had made the day before.  She was talking about gratitude and how one had to make it a practice.  Not just thinking about it, but actually practicing it, meaning actually writing out the three (or however many you want) things you are grateful for every day/night, not just thinking about them.  Practicing in the truest sense of the word, which Webster's defines thus (as a noun):  "the actual application or use of an idea, belief, or method as opposed to theories about such application or use."

I'm actually using the tools I have from WW.

So, a wakeup call in the meeting room, and Brene Brown.  Hard to argue with either one. And BTW, if you have never seen her June 2010 TED talk called The Power of Vulnerability, click that link.  It takes about 20 minutes to watch.  It's life-altering.  I'm not kidding.

My friend, C, left on Sunday, and my friend, Linda the Chicken Lady, arrived on Wednesday with her dog, Hannah.  She's staying with me for a few weeks, and it's very nice to have her and Hannah Dog at the house.  Plus, she telecommutes pretty much all the time, which means she's home a lot.  She offered to cook dinners!!  And she's well aware of the journey I'm on, so she's totally down with weighing and measuring things for me so I can track points easily.  How awesome is that?!

Here's the Check In:

Weight:  -5.2
Daily Points:  34
Weekly Points:  49 (ate 47)
Activity Points:  Earned 11 (ate none)

Oh, and in case your wondering, my choice for the Holida Season was to continue losing. :-)

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Open Your Hands . . .

A friend of mine unfriended me on Facebook sometime in the last couple of days.  It's not someone I am particularly close to any longer, but it was someone I have known for more than 35 years.  I guess this person didn't appreciate my positive focus and ability to disagree clearly but respectfully.

Truth be told, this person has always been an Eeyore kind of a person - a glass half empty kind of a person - a stick in the mud kind of a person - and a person who needs to be right at all costs.  So, really, no great loss.  I mean, who needs that, right?  Right?  And yet . . .

Did they not know that they could remain friends with me but "unfollow" me if they didn't want to read what I have to to say and share?  Did they know that my feelings would be hurt?  Did they care?  Or did they just say "cram it clownie" and walk away.  I'll probably never know, and really, it's that not knowing that's the hardest part.

Ah, closure.  Or in this case, no closure.  Yeah, not having that makes it kinda hard to let go of stuff.  And yet, we have to let go of stuff in order to be able to move forward - and there's the rub.  It's a life lesson that has presented itself to me over and over again, I mean, I've certainly written about this more than once here.  Here is what it boils down to:  I can sit and stew in my righteous anger and let everything else pass me by, or I can let go and keep moving forward.

Yeah - I can only stew for so long. So, I learned how to do it - I don't always do it brilliantly, and it's often a little messy. I don't always do it immediately, and sometimes (OK, a lot of times) I have to do it more than once (hey, practice makes perfect ;-) ).  But I learned how to keep moving forward.

I bet you want to know how.  :-)

I will tell you!

Many years ago at Fourth Presbyterian Church, where I used to sing in the Evening Choir, I heard a sermon.  There are a lot of ministers at that church because it's a really large congregation.  One was a woman.  Her name was Linda Loving (and isn't that just the best name ever for a minister?!  :-) ). The upshot of what she said, lo these many years ago, was that in order to move forward, we had to stop clutching at and holding on to the past - we had to open our hands and release what we were holding on to, so that our hands would be open and free to catch all the good stuff that was coming to us.  It was so powerful and so important for me at that time in my life that I have never, ever forgotten it.

Do this:  hold your hands out in front of you, palms up, and make tight fists.  Look at them.  Then release and open your hands.  Look at them again.  Really look at them.  I'm telling you - it's powerful.

When I pop up in my own mind's eye in a baseball hat and a mitt, I know there's something I need to release.  I'm wearing one of my baseball hats, and I have a catcher's mitt on, and there is amazing and wonderful stuff falling like snow from the sky.  Like little post-it notes fluttering down from on high.  But they aren't sticking to me, and I can't catch them because my hands are not open - they are filled with the past. All I have to do is open my mitt to release what I've been holding on to . . .

It's not always as easy, but it's always profound, and there is always a great sense of relief.  And along with the relief comes a feeling of joy, because now my hands are open and I'm free to decide which of those amazing things floating down from the sky to catch first.

Holding on to pain/grudges/anger/fear/loss/betrayal/control . . .  Wishing the other person would get their comeuppance . . . These things don't serve me, and even though I sometimes fantasize about said comeuppance (who doesn't?) or the perfect retort hours after the fact (why on earth am I so fricking slow on the uptake?!), I feel my feelings.  And when I've wallowed long enough, I put my baseball hat on . . . and open my hands.