Five years ago today my life was altered forever. Radically changed. My now ex-husband came home and out of nowhere blasted our lives out of the water. Turns out he wasn't the person I thought he was . . . he wasn't the person anyone thought he was. It was the beginning of a 10-month stretch of events that would leave me shell-shocked and wondering if I would ever be OK again.
The divorce was brutal - how do you just stop loving someone? Do you? Can you? Just stop? It took me a long time to heal. I used to wonder about the women you would see on telly or read about who said they had no idea their spouses were . . . um . . . not totally committed to the marriage. I used to think to myself, "what, are they stupid? How could you not know?" I'm here to tell you - I didn't know. I had no idea - probably because my life continued on in its fashion - plans were made for the future, etc. It was like being blind-sided by a Mac truck.
I reflect on this annually - I probably always will. It's an anniversary - a life marker, like a birthday. It's a time to take stock, particularly coming as it does so close to what for me is the new year (still stuck in that old "school year calendar" :-) ). Last year was the first year I started to feel remotely human again. And this year - well, it's hard to believe it's been five years. Another time. Another life.
And so I dance like no one's watching. Wildly. With abandon! Because life is too short not to enjoy every second of it. I believe we're meant to be happy, to find what makes the heart sing. So what about it? Put some old disco music on the stereo or your iPod, and dance. Dance for your heart. Dance for your spirit. Dance until you laugh - because you will :-) Who cares if you look like you're doing the funky scarecrow - No one's watching :-)
A's favorite dance tunes (in case you need some inspiration):
Rock Steady - The Whispers
Dancing Queen - ABBA
Love's Theme - Barry White and the Love Unlimited Orchestra
Stomp - The Brothers Johnson
Fantasy - Earth Wind and Fire
And the Beat Goes On - The Whispers
Burn Rubber - The Gap Band
Let's Get Serious - Jermaine Jackson
I Love You - Donna Summer
Heaven Must Be Missing an Angel - Tavares