Cycles . . .
I am thinking seriously about another massive downsizing of my African violets. I'm currently at 31 varieties. I'm still not sure about attending National this year - as much as I'd like to go. And I didn't get any repotting done in preparation for the Illinois state show in April. I should have done that this last weekend after I got home from Colorado. You need 12 weeks. I didn't do it. That means that it's not likely that I will enter this year. As much as I love my violets, this hobby feels like it needs to take a back seat for awhile.
My podcast is over and the Facebook page is down. That was a little difficult - when it came time to truly delete it, all it took was one click. Once you set a page for deletion they give you two weeks, and then you have to go in and click. And it immediately disappears. Kinda wild . . .
Taking the podcast offline and letting the Facebook page go were major steps. I'm not sure that people understood that I was really done this time. It was time to move forward for me, and although it was a bit challenging to truly do that, I knew it was best for me. So with the demise of the Facebook page, it's done. And now I have this persistent feeling that I need to downsize the plants yet again . . .
Even with the greatly reduced number of plants I have at the moment, I'm still feeling like I'm not keeping up very well. It's a struggle lately just to keep everything watered well and that's never a good sign. I'm looking at the guestroom stand right now, and everything needs a drink . . . Which means that I need to get a gallon of water set up and mixed (fertilizer and pH Down) and get it done, and somehow I needed to do that yesterday and it still hasn't happened. On the whole this is not surprising to me. I know that my creativity goes in cycles, so this is nothing new. What I don't know is what will cycle to the forefront in place of the plants.
How do I find out? Well, it's a process of opening my hands and letting go. Being empty and waiting to see what comes to fill that space. I could be anything - that's part of the excitement :-) I'll let you know how it all shakes out.
So yesterday the Amaryllis looked like this:
My podcast is over and the Facebook page is down. That was a little difficult - when it came time to truly delete it, all it took was one click. Once you set a page for deletion they give you two weeks, and then you have to go in and click. And it immediately disappears. Kinda wild . . .
Taking the podcast offline and letting the Facebook page go were major steps. I'm not sure that people understood that I was really done this time. It was time to move forward for me, and although it was a bit challenging to truly do that, I knew it was best for me. So with the demise of the Facebook page, it's done. And now I have this persistent feeling that I need to downsize the plants yet again . . .
Even with the greatly reduced number of plants I have at the moment, I'm still feeling like I'm not keeping up very well. It's a struggle lately just to keep everything watered well and that's never a good sign. I'm looking at the guestroom stand right now, and everything needs a drink . . . Which means that I need to get a gallon of water set up and mixed (fertilizer and pH Down) and get it done, and somehow I needed to do that yesterday and it still hasn't happened. On the whole this is not surprising to me. I know that my creativity goes in cycles, so this is nothing new. What I don't know is what will cycle to the forefront in place of the plants.
How do I find out? Well, it's a process of opening my hands and letting go. Being empty and waiting to see what comes to fill that space. I could be anything - that's part of the excitement :-) I'll let you know how it all shakes out.
So yesterday the Amaryllis looked like this:
Oops! I think it was thirsty, too. I gave it a good drink, and this morning it's back to normal!
Comments
Janice H.
I think you have described perfectly what is so hard for some people to admit to when it comes to letting go- sometimes you outgrow your interest. The key is, of course, to not take that letting go as personal, no matter what's been invested, and see it as growth and not a failure or a burden you have to stick with for xyz reasons which probably have more to do with public opinion.
The phrase, "I'm just not that into you," could take on a whole new meaning here!